. Azri Shah ♥

Theres alot of things in life which i really need right now , well not just ' a thing ' but some people whom i really love . i need them by my side always , without them i dont feel complete , its like im missing important parts of me . Even right now im feeling really lonely , and i dont know why i feel sort of hurt . yesterday i was chatting with him , he said its like im forcing myself to talk to him , but actually it wasnt true . then he sort of took revenge , he talked to me like how i talkied to him , i was like Wow and Why ?! . then he talked about his ex saying that even how bad she is she still listens to him and changes everyday and stuff . whenever he talks bout his ex , it just makes me feel that im no good for him and i'll have alot of negative thinkings , like he still loves his ex girlfriend , his ex is the perfect person for him , its like he's the one who wants to end this relationship . it just hurts alot when he says this kinda things . but there was once when i felt really really hurt , And made me think he is better of without me . And i thought that if i let him go he would be really happy , but i guess it was to difficult letting him go because i really love him so much . i'd rather suffer being hurt all the time than suffer the rest of my life for leaving the person i truely love .

And today , he told me the reason why he wants to break up , he said because i didnt change . i mean like what difference ? . what did i do wrong till you wanna break , even how much you hurt me , i wouldnt wana let you go cause you already stolen my heart . i dont think you really love me , cause if you did , you would never ask for break . but haiss .. i feel so bad now . i feel really really hurt . you dont know how much i really love you . you keep telling me , no matter what happens you wont leave me . and i promised you i wont leave you either . i wanted this relationship to last . i told you before i wanna get serious . but now look . your not doing what you said . And im sure you dont like me to thon , i told you already also i dont like you to thon , but you still go . hais .. i really feel that you still love your ex you know . i really dont know what to do . im so stressed up . i didnt talk to any guys , but you , you talk to girls you talk to your ex . i just keep quiet cause i trust you . this is what i get ? i know you want a perfect person . im sorry if im not perfect kaes . memang im not , but i wanna try to be a really better person . haiss .. i really dont know what to say . all i can say now is that i really really love you , and i dont wanna let you go . a promise is a promise . 

1.  Azri Shah ♥♥♥
   
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