Well , heres the guy that i love so much . what can i say , hes just the sweetest thing ,
but now , theres just so many things going on ,
its like he is trying to avoid me and i keep having feelings that he has no feelings for me anymore ,
it just hurts whenever i think bout all this ,
and it also hurts when he talks to me like im just a normal friend ,
i know i hurt him before , i want to change and be a different person ,
but i think back , and its like no use . because he doesnt care ,
hopefully all me thinkings are wrong , its just that ,
i dont want to lose that special person .
he even told me no matter what he promise he'll wait for me ,
so i really hope that he really did kept his promise too .

So dear , dont think that all those words i said to you was just coming out from my mouth .. 
I was actually serious of what i said ,
but when you didnt believe me , it hurt alot actually ,
its like to you im just plastic .
i really want to change for the better , and i wish you could help me out ,
and understand me more .